What exactly is the dream that I am chasing?
I know that is has been a long time since I have posted. I keep promising to write more and more but with every promise of writing more often, I seem to take even longer hiatuses.
I have been super busy with work. At the beginning of January, I got promoted to being a Set Decorator. I am not even sure how it all happened, but it has been an incredibly scary and amazing roller coaster.
It's kind of amazing, I was only going to work part time after having Wilder, but it quickly snowballed into full-time and then eventually towards Head of Department.
Now as I am working towards wrap of this show, it has given me time to reflect and be amazed at the growth I have experienced over the past few months.
I have learned that I can stand on my own two feet. I have met wonderful people and I don't think that I could have survived these past few months without hiring the amazing team I had. I could not have done it all alone.
I finally got my hair re-colored again so I am feeling more myself, although in all honesty. I have really been struggling to figure out my next step. I keep asking myself "What's next?"
I have been trying to work on a side project that will help other professionals in the film industry connect and find jobs. I want to create a new and modernized way for professionals to connect and grow.
I also have been playing around with the idea of working more on my photography so I can eventually find some way to work freelance.
I have been watching a lot of self made videos and I have been keeping my side business of designing websites for people open. Which is something that helps keep things level when I am not working in film.
I want to find something that I can call totally mine. I know it is out there. I just don't know exactly how to take the first step.
In other news, life at home has been a lot better. I had my small doubt of depression the past couple weeks, but I think that it just my normal "Show Wrap" depression I get at the end of every long show run.
My first born Adrian has started karate, I really believe that it has been helping him with self-discipline and giving him a lot of self-confidence in making friends. I think it is a really good start for him before he starts school, which is terrifying for me that the time has come.
I really hope that my next chapter this year is equally as productive and provides it's own set of challenges that help me grow more and more.
Love,
H A D E S S A H
